I have been in a terrible funk for over a week now. I am to the point that I don't even want to be around myself. I can't seem to force my mind into a good place. TJ has been really strongly on my mind and so has my Father. These thoughts have not been sad or emotional, but I can't seem to get these guys out of my head. I decided that maybe they were there for a reason....usually it means I am screwing something up. I thought and thought about what I could possibly be doing wrong and came up empty handed. Not that I am doing everything perfectly, but nothing that would disappoint these guys.
I just can't find the joy in anything....being with my animals, blogging, hanging with friends, tweeting...it all seems to be a struggle. There are moments when I think I am escaping the "Funk" and suddenly I am sucked back into it again. It is like I have no control over my mind and it is twisting everything in my life into something toxic.
It is Monday. I am usually a fan of Mondays. I think of Mondays as a clean slate, a chance to start all over and make it an awesome week. I am trying to not let my mind turn today into "Toxic Monday". After all I have been through I should be able to win over the toxicity of my mind this week.
Joy and sorrow are inseparable...together they come and when one sits alone with you...remember that the other is asleep upon your bed. ~ Kahlil Gibran