As I begin to think about and write down my goals and plans for my future, as I promised myself for my birthday, I am finding that I doubt myself. This is new to me as I never doubted myself in the past. I may not have always made the right decisions, but the decisions I made were not without conviction. That has all changed now. I find that as I think of future plans and goals I wonder if I can really achieve them. I know now why I have been stuck at this fork in the road for almost 2 years. I am paralyzed because of self doubt.
I doubt my knowledge. Do I really know enough to let go of my past? Can I make good choices now that I am so afraid of what the future might hold? Are my instincts what they used to be? I don't know the answer to these questions and that is why I am still here. Still standing at the fork in the road, still stagnant, and doubtful as to which route to take. I find it easier to not choose at all. In my heart I know that there is no such thing as a "wrong" choice. At this point the only "wrong" choice I can make is no choice at all.
Somewhere inside of me is the will to choose a path. I know I can and I know I will. I may not know the answers today, but they are within me. All I need to do is step back, look at my life objectively and take that single bold step in the direction of my future. I will no longer give power to my self doubt.