My life changed dramatically and forever when I lost TJ.

I welcome you to follow along as I adjust to my "new normal".

It is not all puppies and ice cream but it is my life....real and honest.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I Spoke Too Soon

Just when I thought TJ was settling into a nice 3 week break from treatment....BAM, OUT OF NOWHERE!! That darn back pain hits him again. It started Sunday night and has not let up. Sunday and Monday night he was up quite a bit because he was just plain uncomfortable. This of course keeps me up at night worrying about him and I have to tell ya I have been just plum tired at work this week. I am hoping for a better night tonight but as of now it is not looking good. He has been taking Hydrocodone every 4 hours and he is still just as miserable as can be. I feel so bad for him but there just isn't anything I can do for this and we just have to ride it out. I wish I could say that I don't understand but the reality of it is that I do.
You see, the chemo kills all his white blood cells and now his body is working overtime to rebuild them. His labs between treatments always show really great white blood cell counts so it is worth it (but of course that is easy for me to say, I am not the one in pain). I am considering giving him 2 Hydrocodone tonight so both of us can get a good sleep. His prescription says 1 or 2 and he has only been taking one so it should not be a problem. Heck, maybe a good sleep would help him to feel better too.
Battle On TJ, Battle On


  1. I can't even imagine how hard this must be. You are very strong. I hope you both can sleep well tonight and wake up refreshed. God Bless!

  2. Hoping the pain subsides and that the both of you get some good quality rest.


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