My life changed dramatically and forever when I lost TJ.

I welcome you to follow along as I adjust to my "new normal".

It is not all puppies and ice cream but it is my life....real and honest.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Scanxiety Time

I stole that term from a fellow blogger and if I could remember who I would give them credit. But, the term fits the cicumstance. Tomorrow is TJ's scan, although we don't get the results from the doctor until the following Wednesday afternoon. Anyway, this is a very nervous time as all cancer patients and their loved ones can attest to. Is the cancer gone? Has the cancer spread? Will I require more treatment? Will I require different treatment? What will my quality of life be if I need more treatment? Am I going to make it through this? Am I in remission? When is this going to end? And believe me I could go on and on but there really is no point, it is what it is and all we can do is hope for the very best and keep chugging along.

TJ has still been having quite a bit of back pain and we can't seem to really get it under control. I thought that by now he would be doing so much better. The last couple of nights he has been waking up in quite a bit of pain and needing meds. I hate this for him as I am beginning to see his spirits droop a bit and his attitude has gotten worse. Of course I understand why but it is frustrating for me and I don't know what to do to help him. He is beginning to lose weight and nothing I suggest to eat sounds good to him.

I am asking everyone out there to please cross fingers, pray, cross toes and anything else that you can do to send some luck TJ's way as he goes for his scan in the morning. I plan on rubbing his little bald head for luck :)

Battle On TJ, Battle On


  1. I reached over and rubbed weiner dogs head too. That always seems to bring luck. :).

  2. Yours and TJ's strength and perseverance will continue to shine through. Lots of postive mojo coming your way for tomorrow's scan.

  3. We are rooting for you guys. Think positive, we are.

  4. Waiting for results, that's the worst. My dad was diagnosed with colon cancer in 1975 and was told he had one year to live. He had such a strong will that he proved the doctors wrong for almost 20 years. He passed away in 1993 due to cancer spreading to his liver. But he rarely complained and he always had a positive outlook. I think your TJ will be OK.

    Again, I'll say a prayer for you and TJ.

  5. Yeah. Totally get the scanxiety. Mine is Monday. Good luck to you all.


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